I am not "traditional." Let's get that out of the way up front.

I tried BDSM. My wife and I did so together. I still do not completely comprehend that lifestyle, much in the way I do not at all understand the whole "hotwife" thing. I've had women in real life try to, without consent, dominate me and my life choices, my mother among them. Thus, I submit to no one. Ever. No one.

I have no idea why you felt compelled to tell me that you have this "high-stress, high-paying job." And a horse farm. Bravo. Fucking hoo-rah. Despite my education, I have always had high-stress, low-paying jobs. Was it to feel better about yourself? I just endured five days in Tucson listening to Rotarians (my wife among them) talk about their over-achievment, and that of their children.

I have no patience with overachievers. Bragging makes me sick.

I know I need help. Sadness, depression, and chaos are not OK.

I do not have that perfect divine marriage. I never will. I have to deal with that. One way for me to do so is to stop reading about it.

--

--

--

A hedgewitch, a speaker of difficult truths, still longing for intimacy, and seeking answers to mysteries. Trying hard to stop being sad.

Love podcasts or audiobooks? Learn on the go with our new app.

Get the Medium app

A button that says 'Download on the App Store', and if clicked it will lead you to the iOS App store
A button that says 'Get it on, Google Play', and if clicked it will lead you to the Google Play store
Richard Steele

Richard Steele

A hedgewitch, a speaker of difficult truths, still longing for intimacy, and seeking answers to mysteries. Trying hard to stop being sad.

More from Medium

A Force for Freedom: From Chicago and Beyond Interview with Liz Dozier, Founder and CEO of Chicago…

Brands in Commercials (Super Bowl Edition)

Ramblings — Video Games Aa A Unique Storytelling and Teaching Medium (Celeste, Death Stranding…

Bitcoin’s 21 Million Hard Cap — What Happens When All of It’s Mined?